Building emotional muscle

So, I have all these deep philosophical thoughts about growing up and becoming more emotionally mature, but it seems like it's too much to organize and write down in a blog post. Suffice it to say, that my fellow unmarried 20-somethings and I are probably all in the same, very insecure, boat. Trying to figure out life is HARD!!! Especially because we're living life much differently than how our parents did. I mean, I'm 22 years old, turning 23 in May. My mom was already married by this age. Many of my friends' parents already had a kid by this age. Some of my old high school classmates are already married and have kids. I feel too young for that!! How can I possibly make a marriage work and be an effective parent when I'm still trying to figure out who I am?? Don't get me wrong, I'm happy doing what I'm doing and being where I am, but I feel like this is an explorative time for me. Not a time for me to settle down and be satsified. So anyways, I just wanted to let my friends/fellow bloggers who are in the same boat as me (ahem...Becky, Laura, I know you're reading this and I know that you feel the same way!!!) that I'm there with you!

In other news, my little kleptomaniac has one week left at the Ark, and then he's moving on to a foster family!! Hooray!!! What a relief for him and for us.

I'm feeling more and more at home here in the Springs. I think a big part of that has to do with the fact that I FINALLY have friends of my own. The people I work with at the Ark are SO great. I've never been totally comfortable with mainstream, conforming people, because I've never been completely mainstream. At the Ark, we are all a little off center. You have to be to survive a work environment like that. But I have two female friends at the Ark that I connect with really well. In fact, I think tonight, I'm going to go to a coffee shop with Cameron and crochet and have tea and pretend to be an old lady. :) I'm totally excited.

I was thinking the other day about how lucky I am to have the people that I have in my life. I know I talk about this so much, but honestly, I am so blessed. My family is so wonderful. They are always there to back me up no matter what I decide and I know that I always have a loving place to go if I need it. And I feel the same way about my friends. I think about all the people that I've met throughout the years, and I have some WONDERFUL amazing people that I know are there for me.

Anyways, enough deep thinking for now. On a lighter note, I found a CD from a band called Danger Doom. If anyone out there still watches Adult Swim on Cartoon Network at all, you'd love this. These are the guys who do the intro for Aqua Teen Hunger Force. They've put out a whole album, and it includes quotes from Cartoon Network Adult Swim characters. It's GREAT!

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