A message....from beyond November

Ok, so it's decided. I suck recently at posting. Sorry everybody. Especially after leaving everyone hanging with that most disgusting picture of my face after being assaulted. Thankfully for all of you, I don't have any more yucky pictures to show off. So, what has Sarah been up to in the past month and a half or so..?

First things first, I suppose, I kinda sorta got a promotion at work. There was a whole big restructuring thing among all the cabins, and in the shake-down, I got named to be the lead-staff for the cabin of youngest boys that I always work with. So, that pretty much means that whenever the manager isn't around, all decisions about these boys have to go through me. I hold meetings with the other staff and meet with the therapist to find out what's going on with the boys. I even am considered a "trainer" when my boss isn't around. Crazy. I'm flattered that they wanted me to do it, but also kind of stressed out about it. The fact that if something goes wrong, I could end up responsible for it makes me kind of edgy.

So, there's that. And then Marvin was gone for about three weeks in late November/ early December. He was in Chula Vista, CA, which is pretty much San Diego, for work. So, I've spent the past three or so weeks learning to live by myself. During that period of time I discovered one very important aspect of myself that I've been trying desperately to ignore. I'm a terrible horrible slob. I hate doing dishes and laundry, so the apartment turned into a huge mess. Marvin did get to come home for Thanksgiving, so that was nice. We ate Thanksgiving dinner at my work, since I had to work that day. It was weird for him to meet some of the kids that I work with. Unfortunately, in the middle of dinner, I had to get up and deal with one of my kids who had gotten sick, so he was stuck talking to one of the weirdest kids for about 15 minutes by himself. I think he felt kind of out of place. On the bright side though, this is the first Thanksgiving we've been able to spend together.

Also, just a little while ago I got the good news that I'M COMING HOME FOR CHRISTMAS!!!!! Needless to say, I'm SO excited to get home. I've been practically jumping out of my skin since I found out. I'm so excited that I'm going to get the chance to see pretty much all of my family and friends that I've been missing since I got out here. I'm a little afraid that once I get there, I'm not going to want to come back. I mean, I've been enjoying my time out here a lot, and I love my job, and I value the time that I get to spend with Marvin. It's just getting really hard for me to be so far away from people that I've formed such close bonds with.

Lately I've been thinking a lot about how I'm going to handle this next year when I decide what I want to do with school. If I start school out here, then I'm committed to at least two more years so far away from everyone. I'm not sure I can do that. I've been thinking about finishing school back in Wisconsin or Minnesota. But, then again, that means that I've got to embark on the long-distance relationship thing again. That sucks too. Oh decisions. They are so hard.

In anycase, for all of you Minnesotans and Wisconsinites reading this, I leave a week from today to head home, so hopefully I can meet up with you guys!